Shadows of Gloom
Bones ache in cold October rain,
crying lightning and wracked with pain.
Morose thoughts surface and consume,
slogging through dark shadows of gloom.
Sun fades fast, days grow dimmer
something in the distance glimmers.
On far horizon, changes loom
slogging through dark shadows of gloom.
A slant of light warms and redeems,
left in the veil of whispered dreams.
Hold it close, nurture hope in bloom,
slogging through dark shadows of gloom.
Bones ache in cold October rain,
slogging through dark shadows of gloom.
Colleen Keller Breuning © 2024
October 19, 2024
Hello and Happy Saturday! I know, I know…this is a dark poem. I believe the Arctic Monkeys song title and lyric “Crying Lightning” led me in this direction. I got to thinking about what does it mean to “cry lightning.” It reminded me of pain, like how my mother feels her arthritis during a bad flareup, almost crippling. We all face physical ailments, and sometimes more frequently as you age. I am fortunate that I don’t have illnesses and severe arthritis like some of my family members and friends, but I can feel it creeping up at times. Sometimes we have a bad self-image, and daily positive affirmations may help – but other times you just feel overcome by emotions and negativity. If you know me, my way to cope with that is to just write it out!
Our lives change, and sometimes our journey takes a completely different direction than what we imagined. I had hoped by this age I would be able to retire, but for now I am still working full-time. It seems to get harder each year, by the end of each day I’m tired and by Friday night, I am exhausted physically and mentally. Things don’t come as easy as they used to. I try my best to eat healthy and exercise every single day, but my metabolism is still whacked and my cholesterol levels out of control. I never had a problem with this until the past 4 years or so. I just found out through a blood test this is genetic, so I may have to go on a statin. Not happy about that.
I’ve probably revealed more than I should. Sometimes I just want to say SCREW IT, and eat ALL the cheese, chocolate and French fries! Don’t we all, haha? But I don’t cave in – I keep eating whole grains, salads, fruits, and hoping for the best. Anyway, nobody is perfect and we all have struggles to deal with. I count my blessings, as I have friends going through so much worse! So know that you’re human for feeling whatever emotion you feel – work through it, release it and keep going. That’s my plan. Thanks for listening. Love you all!
Xoxo, Colleen
Inspiration: “Crying Lightning” by Arctic Monkeys
Ecrits Blogophilia Week 16.16 – Whispered Dreams
Hard Bonus: Include a lyric by the Arctic Monkeys (Crying Lightning)
Easy Bonus: Incorporate a Pokemon figure (Gloom)
Colleen Keller Breuning 
Nice sonnet. And ah yes, as a 238 year old alien I must admit my bones and joints don’t work as well as they used to. Just keep on doing what you’re doing! KUDOS Dear Earthling! ❤