Breaking Sad

Breaking Sad

bad
moon rising
tears slip down
reading sad news
pen poised in my hand
yet the words will not flow
fresh ideas do not spark
in the dry desert of my mind
the time has come for a hiatus
for fourteen years we have joined together
sharing laughter, love, pieces of our soul
friendships were nurtured, memories made
never forget the happy times
our amazing adventures
so take a break, dear friends
bask in summer sun
hold these treasures
forever
in your
heart

Colleen Keller Breuning © 2021
June 12, 2021

Where do I start? It took a while to write this, and I changed the title about 10 times. The title is a play on Breaking Bad (the series), but also expresses the feeling in my heart.

I am grateful to have been part of Blogophilia since Week 12 or 13 of the very first year, can’t remember since that was back in 2008. Oh, the heady days of Myspace!! Since then, we’ve been through a lot with the Myspace destruction, the Facebook Note discontinuation, and finally the difficult migration to WordPress. We had some sad times with the loss of writer friends (Barbara, Bettie, Deb Truitt, Elly, Kismet, and Sassy Sue to name a few). But through it all, we persevered and stuck together. I feel blessed to have made friendships virtually (and met a few in real life)! I was able to meet Dahlia, Leta and Christine while Dan and I vacationed in Napa and San Francisco back in 2014 and 2016.  We had a blast both trips, but the most fond memory I have is the time all of us went to some ritzy Italian restaurant in San Francisco and nearly got kicked out for laughing so loud!!! Chalk it up to lots of wine and great conversation and some uptight businessmen who were annoyed with us, haha. Ahhh… that was such an amazing trip!

For me personally, I am blessed to have been able to participate in the best blogging group in the galaxy.  One of my biggest joys was to share my Tommy Blogs with the group. I really enjoyed sharing my crazy cats’ antics and infusing them with personalities. It was such fun, creating the blog and captioning the pictures. Everyone seemed to enjoy Tommy blogs and asked for more! I want to thank all of you for loving Tommy right along with me, and I am truly grateful for your support during his illness and death. It is hard to believe that he passed exactly 9 months ago today. I haven’t been able to write that kind of blog since then. He still has a tight grip on my heart…. I will never ever forget that sweet cat, I think of him each day! *sad tears*

For summer vacation, we plan to make two trips to Florida.  The first trip will be to Panama City and could happen at any moment, when my daughter Katie delivers our grandson Hatcher! She is due June 25, but we are prepared to hop in the car once she goes into the hospital. We can’t be at the hospital due to COVID-19, so we plan to arrive about the time she’s released from the hospital. It would be really cool if he decides to make his entrance on June 20 – which is my birthday and Father’s Day! The second trip will be sometime in August to visit my son Vince in Palm City on the East Coast. We are looking forward to updates on the wedding planning for his November wedding, and doing some fishing and relaxing with his fianceé and him.

Thanks for the memories, Marvin – and please rest up and come back soon! You certainly deserve a break after 14 years. It’s my goal to continue writing each week as I await your return. Sending love and light to Marvin, Commander K and all my Blogophilia friends!

xoxo
Colleen

Ecrits Blogophilia Week 13.14 Topic: “Hiatus” (Provided by Marvin)
Hard Bonus (2 points): Share a ‘detailed fond memory’ of Marvin Martian, Commander K or anyone in the Blogophilia group (past or present)
Easy Bonus (1 Point): Reveal your summer vacation plans

This week’s pic

SECRET BONUS PHRASES:

  1. Bad Moon Rising (in blog)
  2. Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus!
  3. Space Oddity
  4. Alien Abduction
  5. Beam me up, Scotty!
  6. Take me back to Mars
  7. Ray of Light
  8. Twilight Zone
  9. Alien Spacecraft
  10. ET Phone home

In the Shallows

In the Shallows

No
promise

is ever
unbreakable
hollow words echoed
cutting deep as a knife
I struggled against darkness
haunting voices of the afreet
inner demons taunting, pushing me
beyond the rocky shore, torn and tattered
I was drowning in the shallows of life
angry clouds parted as the storm ebbed
on my knees, I crawled to the light
spilling warmth on my cold skin
your spirit touching mine
I had found new faith
you healed my heart
held me safe
in your
arms

Colleen Keller Breuning © 2021
May 21, 2021

Inspired once again by Moby ~ “The Sky is Broken”

Ecrits Blogophilia Week 10.14 Topic: No Promises
Hard Bonus (2 points): Quote Denzel Washington (“I had faith.”)
Easy Bonus (1 Point): Use the word “afreet” (Per Merriam-Webster: a powerful evil jinni, demon, or monstrous giant in Arabic mythology)

This week’s cute pic

Secret Bonus Guesses:

  1. Pied Piper
  2. Kitten/cat charmer
  3. Stray cat strut
  4. Flute player
  5. Childhood buddies
  6. Street music
  7. Serenade on the stoop
  8. Singing for your supper
  9. Music to my ears
  10. Hey diddle diddle, the cat and the fiddle

Topic: Irene   Pic:  Lika 

Downstream

Downstream

down by the water
I ponder meaning of life
lay my burden down

blue trail of sorrow
heart drops like a sinking stone
clear to the bottom

gravity defied
as I float downstream
in gentle river

washed ashore, breathless,
hands reach out in grateful skies
as a new dawn breaks

Colleen Keller Breuning © 2021
May 14, 2021

“Rushing” by Moby

Ecrits Blogophilia Week 9.14 Topic: By the Water
Hard Bonus (2 points):  Include the meaning of life 
Easy Bonus (1 Point): Use the title of a song by Alison Krauss (“Lay My Burden Down,” “Blue Trail of Sorrow,” “Sinking Stone, “Gravity” and “Gentle River”)

This week’s pic

SECRET BONUS GUESSES:

  1. Down by the Water (in blog)
  2. Gentle River (in blog)
  3. Float Downstream (in blog)
  4. Slow Boat to China
  5. Paddle board
  6. Fisherman
  7. Gone Fishing
  8. Fishing Pole
  9. Fishing Hole
  10. Sail Away

Topic:  Christopher  Pic:  Stormy

Black Swan

Black Swan

See her glide across liquid fields of blue,
The shape of water morphing in her tracks.
Through dappled clouds, bright rays of light shine through
As dewdrops glisten on her feathered back.

Dark silhouette, epitome of grace, 
She shadow dances from dusk until dawn.
A sweet ballet, accolades to embrace:
Proud moments in the life of a black swan. 

But seasons in the sun fade too quickly;
Youth and beauty were never meant to last.
Your essence lingers in my memory,
Until the final curtain call is cast.

Good night darling, in morning may you wake
From golden slumbers on this pristine lake.

Colleen Keller Breuning © 2021
May 8, 2021

I wrote this Shakespearean sonnet after being inspired by the beautiful Swan Lake Theme by Tchaikovsy. This musical piece brings back such wonderful childhood memories of listening to vinyl records with my Dad and my Mom …. we all loved Tchaikovsky music!! Where does the time go? *happy tears*

Happy Mother’s Day to all Moms out there! Sending love and peace!
xoxo Colleen

Ecrits Blogophilia Week 8.14 Topic: A Proud Moment
Hard Bonus (2 points): Incorporate 2 Beatles Song Titles (Golden Slumbers, Good Night)
Easy Bonus (1 Point): Mention an Oscar Winning Movie (The Shape of Water, Black Swan)

SECRET BONUS PHRASES:

This Week’s Pic
  1. Seasons in the sun (in blog)
  2. Silhouette (in blog)
  3. Shadow Dancing (in blog)
  4. Jumping for Joy
  5. Sunset
  6. Leap of faith
  7. Forever Young
  8. Tumbling
  9. School’s out for summer
  10. Greeting dawn with open arms

Topic:  Tyler    Pic:  Irene

Golden Parachutes

Golden Parachutes

On Monday mornings I wake up with dread.
My heart is pounding, gut heavy with rocks,
Exploding pressure cooker in my head…
Bracing for chaos as I punch the clock.

Mountains of emails and telephone calls,
Dealing with problems and bad attitudes.
I’m losing all patience, hitting the wall…
I’d like just one moment of solitude.

The week is endless, no relief in sight.
Day after day, corporate misery.
No golden parachutes and no stock rights…
Retirement seems to have eluded me.

My nerves are frazzled and my brain is numb…
Wondering if Friday will ever come.

Colleen Keller Breuning © 2021
February 26, 2021

Ecrits Blogophilia Week 51.13 Topic: I’ll Have Just One 
Hard Bonus (2 points): Reference a Sesame Street Character (Frazzle)
Easy Bonus (1 Point): Mention a Cooking Disaster (Exploding Pressure Cooker)

This Week’s pic

Secret Phrase Guesses:

1.  Dream Land
2.  Clouds in my coffee
3.  Stairway to Heaven
4.  Jacob’s Ladder
5.  Fluffy Pink Clouds
6.  Head In the Clouds
7.  On Cloud Nine
8.  Cotton Candy Cloud
9.  Field of Dreams and Lavender
10. Sweet Dreams are Made of This

Topic:  Tyler   Pic:  Jessica